First, thanks so much for your kind words AND for the collective cooing over our sweet beh beh.
I said yesterday that I wasn’t going to talk about the potential issue, but, surprise I am.
During our ultrasound yesterday, the technician noticed what appeared to an amniotic band close to my cervix. My reactions was “Oh, well, there’s amniotic fluid in there so bands are a thing, I guess.” And we went about our business with the tech mentioning that she was going to ask my doctor about it. After doing so she said that we would take another look at it when they try to get another shot of the baby’s face.
When we got home, I casually searched “amniotic band” on the Internet. And then proceed to dissolve into a puddle of ugly tears because the Internet is horrible for pregnant women and only includes information on the small percentage of people who experience problems because of this “issue.”
So Ross and I go back to the doctor today to sit down with him and discuss everything in more depth. He confirms that it is definitely an amniotic band but, due to its position, he’s not concerned. However, he would like us to go see a perinatal specialist to have it looked at. If there’s a real problem, they can go in and do surgery to correct it. But, he assured us that in his 30 years of practice, he’s seen these a lot and has never delivered a baby who suffered complications from it.
Ross hears “not concerned,” “seen these a lot,” “no complications.”
I hear “definitely,” “perinatal specialist,” and “surgery.”
Because I’m a mother now and that’s what I do.
Oh, and I also fall apart.
I know in my head that everything will be fine. I know in my head that I know this is not a disaster and we could have heard some very devastating news today.
But I also know in my heart that it kills me to think that there’s a chance that something could hurt my baby and, if so, his or her safe little bubble in my belly might have to be disrupted to deal with it.
We’re seeing the specialist tomorrow. His name is Dr. Christmas. I’m hoping that’s a sign of good things to come.